Only if I could run away..

You stay right where life breathes,pulsates and flows
How can I smother it,stop or stanch..
but sight of your innocent face kills me every day.
Even though I run or hide
you travel along when I streak.

I try to get away but the smile of yours comes and haunts me
I try to chase your thoughts away but the innocent face freaks me
I try to forget you but those eyes follow me
I guess that's because you stay right where life breathes, flows and pulsates.

Avoiding you is terribly painful but
That's the way it has to be
I was getting attached but
I realise separation will be excruciating.
No you are no whiskey,beer or rum but
I m addicted,I am a sot but
teetotalism is the only option.

I want to be with you because I love you
you don't want anyone who could love you..
I know love has no conditions n no bounds
but what do I do with this heart of mine
where you live pulsate flow n breathe..

Will I ever love again

The zephyr which carried love
now is air thin and mirk
At times it caressed my soul
now punctures my heart a hole
Love which bloomed and blossomed in the spring
cries in d wake of autumn wind.
Scenic flower bed which bloomed with you
now resembles graveyard drab life pulled away, beauty withdrew.
Knows no one where is the love lost
I wonder this with every second gone
will I ever love again..
The feelings in me have not died yet
but its hard to imagine life again
This heart knows you have gone away far far
all that is left is a scar.
I could live rest of the life with memories fond
I wonder if I again could share the same bond
Dont know how and when will this heart rebreath
I wish sooner or later it walks the love breeze
Coz love is the best feeling I have felt
though many who havent experienced might dread
but sooner or later need for a partner is felt.
I dont know how my case fits in
I dont care if it does or it dint
All i wonder every now n then
is
if I will ever love again..will love again..

Thoughts in my head

Thunder strikes
Followed by lightening bright
What follows is a storm strong
and a silence unborn.

I shake my head but to no avail
trapped in a concussion's wake
I can see but I can't also
dizziness is all I can see grow.

The cloud of mist is here to stay
Turning to fog dark and grey
Thoughts smeared by the deafening silence
Like cries for help in blightness.

I want to throw the thoughts out
Wish I could shout out loud
It takes patience lot
Wish the peace was fought!
I must admit straight and fair
Patience I don't have
Peace I never get
With my head full of thoughts
Which leaves my mind prying for it
Wish the scenario could change
I could rest in peace again..
Give me some rest
take the thoughts away from my head!!

Smile

One New Message

I look at my phone lying dead n helpless all alone
waiting for it to ring shake atleast vibrate
whenever it rings, my heart sinks
I jump at the cell like a plane touching the tarmac
Type in the security code and press go
It shows not a proper code
I try retry until I get through
To finally see the message is not from you


Gone are the times,
which began with your good morning and ended with good night.
Finding it very hard to say but I wish there was another way
Wish there were no cell and no signal
Good were the times with post and post-messenger
He would put letters in the mailbox
unlike SMS it would be slow.
I wouldn't get so addicted to you
coz your mails would be very few
It would cost 2 rupees for every post
something you would always foreclose.

I wait for you to message
thinking that you would change
But how could I be so dumb
I guess I am love stung
Now I know why you don't message
Its because my number has changed!!!
How can I act so asinine
Maybe because I drank love with wine
I am completely drunk
will sign-off by saying life waits for none
What if no new messages
will read d old ones and have fun..

Want you back or Dont..

Since the day you said no
this heart has stopped
thoughts all crossed.

The time with you flew-by soon,
dont know how and still no clue.
wish I knew this before
every one who comes has to go!

You became so much close
that there was no one else more
you were my sun,stars and the moon
I saw the whole world in you.
I don't know what went wrong
just a flick and you were gone.
Before I could understand what had happened
the happiness and sorrow grappled
obviously sorrow won the battle
my heart broke,I croaked
the sound reverberated
shards ricocheted
days were nights and nights nightmare.
Life now was just a gamble
it hung in the air
with no fun and no flair.

I don't want anythin from life now
just one wish and this would b last
after I die hold me in your arms
In life couldn't get your warmth
atleast before I am burnt..fire my heart..

One more thing..
after I die
Take a day out once a year
arrange some party n some beer!
Put a flower on my grave
Remember the time of solace
Shed a tear or two
that will make me feel near you.
I am sure life after death will be fun
will wait for us to be one
birth it may take one or seven..

Tears

Sight of you could bring a smile askew
now just a thought causes tears to run through
I wanted to drown in your eyes beautiful
but now mine themselves deluge..

The flood not only causes tears to fall
but its also obfuscates all my thoughts
The garbled head and emotions full
still this mind doesn't forgets you.
May be because you don't stay in my mind
Its the heart where I must find.

How do I push you out of my system
I think I must cry blood instead of water
I loved u from BOTTOM of my heart
Don't know if even crying blood will set us apart.


I cry when I think of you
During day,night and also in noon!!
God! I asked for rain the day whole
So that my tears don't fall and roll
If not that, at least give me a knob
so that I can turn them forever off.


Look in my eyes you will see the pain
although its not heart,mind or my brain
Since eyes present picture of ones heart
that's where you will find your worth part..

Tears haven't washed your thoughts
they are embedded as markings on a rock.
will always cherish your thought
even if my heart stops the throb..
..That's a promise!

Last Wish

Background:

Its about a guy who loved someone but wasnt loved back .He never overcame her and never looked for anyone else.Life gradually somehow continued.One day she passed away..He was distraught..He has a wish.. read on..

Poem:

Since long I have been awake
Walking throughout the worldly ways
I am tired of wait and pain
want to rest in peace now.

I have no one to cry when I die
Lost her when I was naive
Waited for her all my life
The only wish after I die
bury my torso and my limbs
next to where my loved-one resides
I could not have her when we were alive
but who knows we might meet after-life.

In the hope that she was still alive
I never committed a suicide
But the time has come for me to realise
she was never mine
I must not b a kid and must move on
but hey wait i am already 80 now
At this age I can barely move
O god please call me
coz its time for me to move on now
From this life to one where she is now….where she is now..

Life

Life is a flight which will crash one day
in this or the other way..
It may not take off at all
or flying mid air it might stall
You never know wats up next for grabs
So instead y not enjoy the slugfest!

Life is uncertain every moment
Its we humans who must sustain
Life is a burden n we are slaves
so why not tame n turn it our ways ..

Life has its ups and downs
Out of habit we just frown
Lets make a promise
come whatever may..I won't go down.

Learn from d experience to grow stong
Watever turn life takes you don't fall
Be like a kid who learns from the falls
Thats is how he grows up tall.

Parachute your experience during d crash
As i said its a slugfest
Go out n prepare for the bout
Spread d happyness in and around.
Create friends and don't ever fight
This is how enemies wil call u as mine
Bcoz when d plane ll crash
Its d pilot d steward and d hostess
Who ll come to your rescue and your protect!

Hunger is what is required
To fuel d fire and d desire
So never let d passion die
Atleast up-till d moment u die
In life do somethin so good n naive
That world remembers you n they cry!
You are missed n memories cherished
Just like your existence never perished!

YOU

Once upon a time...
When serious love appeared for me
I saw it in form of you,
I was there n so were you,
Although words were few,
I said it all so I don't lose you,
Time you asked and I gave you,
Now this life hangs on hope n waits for you.

U deserve a life beautiful
As beautiful as you
One day we will be together
So paint me blue

You asked for time n u have it,
Make sure you just don't let go it,
I might b with you now, not so far,
But time one passed makes me far
And us apart :-(

Just agitate ur mind
Throw the waste out
Create heaven in ur head
N accept us now...

I see the future high
Its for you to climb now
I had enough of it n feel like crying
Hope to see you there to wipe mine...

I have been there in your need,
That's y you call me friend indeed,
Now when I need you badly,
Don't disappoint me sadly...

I have waited my life for someone like you,
I gambled my life n found a worth you,
My dreams start and end with you,
Wish us a life together which now rests on you…

I have been your support upfront
Don't pull me down when I need someone
I here say it once to you
I love you n it will b always YOU...

Dear forget the past
We will make a new start
You are mine and I m yours
Let’s hold hands n celebrate the cause...

If you don't want me then lets call it quits
The time I spent with you had peaks n pits
I ll always cherish every moment...
But dear there is no future if you don't see a present

I wish us all the best
And hereby I will say again
It was you n will always be you
I will always love n love only YOU...